- Always say yes to seeing friends
- Eat breakfast every day
- Recognize that positive change rarely happens overnight
- Accept the fuck-ups, but try not to let them happen again
- There is a song to remedy every situation on the planet
- Appreciate the people in your life
- Look for the good in everything
- Try new things and try them often
- Treat yourself as well as you treat others
I have always found to be elsewhere. In my academics. My busy life. My friends. Those who believe in me. In love. Most importantly. In myself. I always found it interesting that there was some aspect in my life that was holding me back from where I need to go and am destined to go. To a place that is better for me. An accepting place. A place where I do not have to hide. A place where I can freely express essence of my twin spirits. Where I could begin the journey and start a brand new chapter and fulfill my dreams of moving to Boston, Massachusetts. Brockport has been an interesting journey so far. I have come SO far in the last 6 months. Recently, I have moved to the Townhomes and I have my own room and I get along smashingly with my housemates. It was today that brought a lot of soul searching and letting of things in my life that was poisonous to my existence. My mom. Her hatred. Her confusion. She lies and represses all sorts of things but I know that there is a lot that she has to work through in her own journey. I am no longer hers. I am my own self. I am who I am meant to be. I always have been. I am more passionate about LGBTQ rights, issues, and identities as this is one important social factor of American culture. The shifting of social interactions and immersion between people, cultures, religions, and languages. All of the things that have been created by human beings, yet, are being used to segregate and destroy one another based on false beliefs that detriment others living a happy life. I am tired, sometimes. Tired of hearing people’s bullshit. I have become so much more vocal. I have become more gender ambiguous, regardless of the facial hair that unfortunately grows on my face. I am become more flexible when it comes to managing work, play, school, and friends. My Internship at the Gay Alliance certainly is taking a number on me as it teaches me life skills that I will take with me throughout my professional careers. I am freer as I realized that I am not going back to Liverpool, NY or even Syracuse in general for “living” purposes. I do not see what it has in store for me anymore. I have grown passed it. I have grown stronger. More resilient. More determined. More fabulous. There is a lot on my mind and a lot on my plate but I do not feel exuberantly overwhelmed. I know that Spring Break is coming and I have that to relax and use that time wisely for catch up and managing projects of all sorts. I am excited to see Lee again and to meet Michael. Spending time with them will be a wonderful and comfortable experience as there will be so much catching up to do. So much emotion behind every word. So much love spent on every glance towards each other. So much warmth within the house. I truly wish the best for my mom. I am blessed with meeting Barry. I do not have ties to my mother in ways that may jeopardize me. I have moved on. I am not letting her ignorance or beliefs stop me from doing something that I stand for. Love is what I stand for. Why is that so wrong? It is a simple word that has such a complex meaning and tie to The Universe that we do not yet understand regardless of empirical research, which has not even begun to scratch the surface of “Love.”
Where am I at the moment?
I am content.
I am me.
I am busy.
I am healthy.
I am wealthy.
I am fabulous.
I am blessed.
In addition, I write that on my heart to recognize the blessings The Universe has bestowed upon me. I am grateful.
I have a purpose.
Wherever I go, I bring sunshine to those who need it.
I am Lucky Summer Light.
OMG PRESH LIGHTNING BOLT HEADED PUPPY!!!
I NAME YOU HARRY PUPPER!!!
You’re a husky, Harry
I show affection for my pets by holding them against me and whispering I love you repeatedly as they struggle to escape from my arms